Hey Chris
Just hang in there guy!! I know that it seems easier said than done but you have a beautiful family and in time your star will shine. It sounds like you and your wife have weathered many storms and being young, will have many more to encounter along the way. Never doubt your faith in God and know that if God brings you to it, he will bring you through it! I know things are tough for you right now. Times are tough for us all and with that thought in mind know that there are others that are in worse shape than you. It sounds like you have just begun a new chapter in your life and you have chosen a path that not many people would dare do. You have decided to serve your country and if called upon, risk your life so that the rest of us can be free. This decision is God's work and I am thankful that there are Angels on Earth like you!! Chin up and make sure you hug your beautiful daughter a little tighter and hold your wife a little longer tonight!! God Bless You!!